The sky is beautiful tonight.
Or not the sky, really. The stars?
Not that either.
Somewhere a father is
putting his children to bed,
kissing them on their foreheads;
somewhere a young girl is saying her prayers;
somewhere a baby is crying,
someone is having an argument about who to blame.
Somewhere a young couple
is passionately making love for the first time,
a couple with many years under their belts
is relaxing in the usual habits,
or balancing the budget,
or planning a vacation.
Somewhere music is playing,
and a young man is fingering the frets of his guitar,
a young woman is exploring the edges of her voice.
Maybe it’s the silence
(though I don’t really enjoy silence).
Maybe it’s that there is stillness,
and that there is no regret right now,
only memories.
I taste them again,
roll them around my mouth,
tonguing their surfaces,
smoothing out the ridges.
I, too, have been someone
acquainted with the night.
I used it as a veil,
cultivated secrets – hidden exchanges.
I have taken to my bed beautiful women,
and less beautiful women;
I have embraced beautiful boys
and used them according to my own desires.
Though it really wasn’t about desire.
Nor beauty. Nor loneliness
(though I know you were thinking it).
I spent many nights
dancing under lights, or not.
I was content to dance alone;
enjoying the sensation of my body
moving through space,
the presence of other bodies,
the sweat and voices –
how to marry impulse and gesture,
the call and response, calculated displays.
Some nights I sat in my living room or on my bed,
high, and wept.
Some nights I wandered aimlessly along the city streets.
Some nights I was held a prisoner of hope –
mine or others’
- grasping at dreams or rumours,
looking for purchase.
Sometimes I crawled, or leapt –
I stumbled more often than I would care to admit.
I learned this:
all things are under pressure.
Sometimes they hold firm.
Sometimes they crumble.
All you can do is wipe your hands
- hopefully they will come clean –
and just keep moving.
That is comforting,
if not beautiful.
April 2014
Wednesday, April 30, 2014
Tuesday, April 29, 2014
national poetry month, day twenty-nine: robert currie
For a Poet Facing the End
You live in a narrow bed and wait for death
while I lift and work with your limp left arm
and listen to your steady, rasping breath,
the ventilator easing our alarm.
Your right arm in turn, your legs, your feet
I life, rotate and rub--it's exercise
or passes for that in one who once was fleet
in mind and body, though now your thighs
are shrunken to a fraction of your mind,
which rails and shakes like any frantic child
who rages at his parents--dumb and blind--
and needs only half a chance to run wild,
but you, your voice silenced, a final drought,
you mourn for every poem you can't get out.
Currie, Robert. "For a Poet Facing the End" Poet to Poet. Roorda, Julie and Elana Wolff, eds. Toronto: Guernica Editions, Inc., 2012. 137.
You live in a narrow bed and wait for death
while I lift and work with your limp left arm
and listen to your steady, rasping breath,
the ventilator easing our alarm.
Your right arm in turn, your legs, your feet
I life, rotate and rub--it's exercise
or passes for that in one who once was fleet
in mind and body, though now your thighs
are shrunken to a fraction of your mind,
which rails and shakes like any frantic child
who rages at his parents--dumb and blind--
and needs only half a chance to run wild,
but you, your voice silenced, a final drought,
you mourn for every poem you can't get out.
Currie, Robert. "For a Poet Facing the End" Poet to Poet. Roorda, Julie and Elana Wolff, eds. Toronto: Guernica Editions, Inc., 2012. 137.
Monday, April 28, 2014
national poetry month, day twenty-eight: w. s. merwin
A Calling
My father is telling me the story of Samuel
not for the first time and yet he is not quite repeating
nor rehearsing nor insisting he goes on telling me
in the empty green church smelling of carpet and late dust
where he calls to mind words of the prophets to mumble in a remote language
and the prophets are quoting the Lord who is someone they know
who has been talking to them my father tells what the Lord
said to them and Samuel listened and heard someone calling someone
and Samuel answered Here I am and my father is saying
that is the answer that should be given he is telling me
that someone is calling and that is the right answer
he is telling me a story he wants me to believe
telling me the right answer and the way in which it was spoken
in that story he wants to believe in which someone is calling
Merwin, W. S. "A Calling". The Body Electric: America's Best Poetry from The American Poetry Review. Berg, Stephen, David Bonanno and Arthur Vogelsang, Eds. New York: W. W. Norton & Company, 2000. 441.
My father is telling me the story of Samuel
not for the first time and yet he is not quite repeating
nor rehearsing nor insisting he goes on telling me
in the empty green church smelling of carpet and late dust
where he calls to mind words of the prophets to mumble in a remote language
and the prophets are quoting the Lord who is someone they know
who has been talking to them my father tells what the Lord
said to them and Samuel listened and heard someone calling someone
and Samuel answered Here I am and my father is saying
that is the answer that should be given he is telling me
that someone is calling and that is the right answer
he is telling me a story he wants me to believe
telling me the right answer and the way in which it was spoken
in that story he wants to believe in which someone is calling
Merwin, W. S. "A Calling". The Body Electric: America's Best Poetry from The American Poetry Review. Berg, Stephen, David Bonanno and Arthur Vogelsang, Eds. New York: W. W. Norton & Company, 2000. 441.
Sunday, April 27, 2014
national poetry month, day twenty-seven: stanley kunitz
Touch Me
Summer is late, my heart.
Words plucked out of the air
some forty years ago
when I was wild with love
and torn almost in two
scatter like leaves this night
of whistling wind and rain.
It is my heart that's late,
it is my song that's flown.
Outdoors all afternoon
under a gunmetal sky
staking my garden down,
I kneeled to the crickets trilling
underfoot as if about
to burst from their crusty shells;
and like a child again
marveled to hear so clear
and brave a music pour
from such a small machine.
What makes the engine go?
Desire, desire, desire.
The longing for the dance
stirs in the buried life.
One season only,
and it's done.
So let the battered old willow
thrash against the windowpanes
and the house timbers creak.
Darling, do you remember
the man you married? Touch me,
remind me who I am.
Kunitz, Stanley "Touch Me" The Best of the Best American Poetry: 25th Anniversary Edition. Pinsky, Robert, ed. New York: Scribner Poetry, 2013. 134-5.
Summer is late, my heart.
Words plucked out of the air
some forty years ago
when I was wild with love
and torn almost in two
scatter like leaves this night
of whistling wind and rain.
It is my heart that's late,
it is my song that's flown.
Outdoors all afternoon
under a gunmetal sky
staking my garden down,
I kneeled to the crickets trilling
underfoot as if about
to burst from their crusty shells;
and like a child again
marveled to hear so clear
and brave a music pour
from such a small machine.
What makes the engine go?
Desire, desire, desire.
The longing for the dance
stirs in the buried life.
One season only,
and it's done.
So let the battered old willow
thrash against the windowpanes
and the house timbers creak.
Darling, do you remember
the man you married? Touch me,
remind me who I am.
Kunitz, Stanley "Touch Me" The Best of the Best American Poetry: 25th Anniversary Edition. Pinsky, Robert, ed. New York: Scribner Poetry, 2013. 134-5.
Saturday, April 26, 2014
national poetry month, day twenty-six: marvin bell
Marco Polo
1.
He was heroic, fugitive, in love with the machinery
of the sea, and every song he sang was of the sea.
His smile was golden, and a skeleton's grimace
in the earth, for every smile ends up in a grimace.
In his famous hands, a chisel could whistle,
and in hands such as his, an insect might sing.
He whose chances rode the foaming oceans
toward ivory-hued dresses of a new substance.
This, among ashes, a scrawny angel may sing,
from a naked belly, of a delicate emptiness.
2.
When Marco Polo set his compass for gold
and ivory, and his dictionary for Chinese,
when Marco Polo set his chisel for a smooth bow
(to stir the waves to foam) and a stern like ice,
when Marco Polo fixed his stare on silky dresses
and the porcelain look of China, and when he had
sailed his scrawny machine to a fugitive corner
of the globe, and the faces of his crew were ashen,
and even the rigging grimaced like a skeleton, why
then Marco Polo landed, and the caged insects sang!
3.
With a chisel, he found his gold. And ivory, and ashes.
With a borrowed dictionary, he talked and he sang.
With machinery, foam. With machinery, the fugitive.
With machinery, a grimace. With machinery, insects.
With machinery, a skeleton. With scrawny rigging,
a belly of ashes in a fugitive skeleton. With a chisel,
the gold for engines to carry the burnished dresses
to England, though he himself sang mainly of the gold.
He was the Marco Polo of tea and gunpowder,
devoured by the Oriental machinery of the silkworm.
Bell, Marvin. "Marco Polo". The Body Electric: America's Best Poetry from The American Poetry Review. Berg, Stephen, David Bonanno and Arthur Vogelsang, Eds. New York: W. W. Norton & Company, 2000. 43-4.
1.
He was heroic, fugitive, in love with the machinery
of the sea, and every song he sang was of the sea.
His smile was golden, and a skeleton's grimace
in the earth, for every smile ends up in a grimace.
In his famous hands, a chisel could whistle,
and in hands such as his, an insect might sing.
He whose chances rode the foaming oceans
toward ivory-hued dresses of a new substance.
This, among ashes, a scrawny angel may sing,
from a naked belly, of a delicate emptiness.
2.
When Marco Polo set his compass for gold
and ivory, and his dictionary for Chinese,
when Marco Polo set his chisel for a smooth bow
(to stir the waves to foam) and a stern like ice,
when Marco Polo fixed his stare on silky dresses
and the porcelain look of China, and when he had
sailed his scrawny machine to a fugitive corner
of the globe, and the faces of his crew were ashen,
and even the rigging grimaced like a skeleton, why
then Marco Polo landed, and the caged insects sang!
3.
With a chisel, he found his gold. And ivory, and ashes.
With a borrowed dictionary, he talked and he sang.
With machinery, foam. With machinery, the fugitive.
With machinery, a grimace. With machinery, insects.
With machinery, a skeleton. With scrawny rigging,
a belly of ashes in a fugitive skeleton. With a chisel,
the gold for engines to carry the burnished dresses
to England, though he himself sang mainly of the gold.
He was the Marco Polo of tea and gunpowder,
devoured by the Oriental machinery of the silkworm.
Bell, Marvin. "Marco Polo". The Body Electric: America's Best Poetry from The American Poetry Review. Berg, Stephen, David Bonanno and Arthur Vogelsang, Eds. New York: W. W. Norton & Company, 2000. 43-4.
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