confession

so is this when the new habit begins? 
has something yet changed? 
i keep waiting for a letter in the mail, 
a phone call from a friend, 
emails from relatives, 
anything from my father. 

distances are still distances. 
words remains fragile things. 
i still don’t regret the arguments. 
i regret we never found a conclusion. 

i still have things to say 
but i do not think you will hear them. 
i wish you would hear them. 
i wish there was a way to bring them to you.

hiking

we were hiking down by the river 
and turned left onto a footbridge 

two young women were taking turns 
taking topless photos of each other

they stopped when they saw us 
and quickly took off on their bikes 

when we saw them later on the stairs 
we pretended we didn’t recognize them 

i guess we all have different ways
to capture a moment, or share it

thomas sunday

I, too, wish to see you for myself. 
Your smiling face. Your hands. Your side. 
I want what all others want. 
I wish I was there to receive the peace, 
and to receive the peace. 
You appear in the midst of us. 
The doors remain closed. 
I keep writing until they are not.

21 days

i won’t tell you 
it takes 21 days 
to form a new habit. 
it’s simply not true. 
it takes 21 days 
before the phantom 
pain subsides. 

i will tell you instead 
it takes 21 days 
to break a habit, 
to pin it to the wall 
until it stops twitching. 
sometimes 
it’s a slow death. 
sometimes 
it takes much longer. 
one never can tell. 

it might take 21 days 
for you to recognize 
your new face. 
it might take you a lifetime.

goals

how to achieve an impossible goal: 
first, plan in two week installments. 
the timelines are bound to change – 
it shouldn’t surprise you. 

so make a list. be specific. 
who cares about becoming rich? 
find ways to change the world  
one word at a time. settle in. 
measure your worth. 
let them feel the weight of you. 
i want to feel the weight of you. 
there will always be gaps. 
let your lack fuel your desire. 
fill the emptiness with intention. 
there is something needs doing 
and who will take up the charge? 
there is only this moment 
and the next moment and the next. 
there is only yes and the work. 

prepare the soil. 
plant the seeds. 
gather your tools. 
pull the weeds. 
hope for rain. 

now imagine it’s completed. 
don’t give up hope. 
write it down 
like it’s poetry. 
a celebration. 
repeat.  
repeat.